School Is Out!

Today is the first day of summer vacation. Oh how I wish I could sleep in and hang with the children. Although yesterday? It was a bit taxing with 10 boys hanging out after school. The good news was I only had to feed 7 of them. The bad news is the youngest 3 almost drove me to drink what with the hooting and hollering and LOUD laughter that was not cute and precious but LOUD (did I mention LOUD?) and obnoxious.

Today I got to get up and get ready for work in peace and quiet. There was no one to yank out of bed and threaten life and limb if they didn't get moving. I was out of the house in less than an hour and folded a load of laundry, put a new batch in the washer and left a list of chores for the children to choose from. Whether or not they get done is another matter.

I also have made a list of things I must do. Soon. Like making a list of breakfast choices, lunch choices and a new chore chart. Make sure there is actual food in the house to choose from. And for the love of God, go to my second job and finish up what needs to be done for the summer. I am so behind! But it is hard to find time to go in when they are open and someone is around to watch the kids.

Still, the relief I felt at not having to worry about lunches and homework and end of year activities has been lovely. Now if it would stop raining on baseball night so we could finish the regular season already...

Kid Quote

"It seems the worst day got mixed up with the best day."
-Tyler, age 10

(He's breaking my heart.)

My Sanity in Question

Once again I've been writing posts in my head. Seems the only time I have to actually think is driving in the car. So, bullets...

• New cell phone! YAY! Why do they have so many gadgets now? And why does it cost so much to use them?


• New camera! YAY! Still figuring it all out. And still feeling guilty for spending all that money that could have gone into the house.


• Hummingbird has been coming to feed at my honeysuckle the last 2 evenings between 8:30ish and 8:45ish. I'm so glad I noticed. It feels luxurious to spend those 15 minutes just watching for him. (I'm thinking the fact it seems like a huge luxury is not a good sign.)


• Turning off the expressway and feeling the wind caress my face each day on my way home. Lovely. Luxurious. A reason to not be pissed the air conditioning in the van is on the fritz.


• Serious need for a weekend BY. MY. SELF. I don't know how you all do it. I need at least a weekend a year away from the kids to keep my sanity. It's been over a year. Now that I've identified the fact I can't hold out much longer I can't decide between:
  
  
  
  • A weekend home alone to clean the damn house.
  
  
  • A weekend at a friend's doing things like going out for dinner and ... well, whatever else one does when with friends. (It's been way too long.)
  
  
  • A weekend at my mom's where I can watch TV/movies during the day and not do or plan or arrange anything.
  
  
  • A weekend spent visiting family that lives about 6 hours away.


• I know I should DO something. I should clean. I should visit. But I really want to spend a beautiful day lounging on the couch and watching TV. It seems so wrong.

That's all I've got. NEED VACATION.

Just a Quick Update...

because MY GOD, the business that is June is KILLING. ME.

Things are going well in my cliche life. Trying to put to use skills the counselor taught us and it seems to be working. Not that it's all a bed of roses all the time but the weirdness, fragility & anger seems to be gone. I've finally stopped feeling like I've been holding my breath. Not to say things won't ever take a turn for the worst because... hello - this is life we're talking about here. But things are good and I'm trying to enjoy them.

Now if school would just be over already. Then end of school things are never ending and the sport - it is all too much.

I think I need a nap.