Monday, March 26, 2007

To My Future Therapist & the Internets in General

I'm a crier.

When I'm extremely emotional I cry. I do not cry to manipulate people. I do not cry to garner sympathy. I cry because I can't help it.

In fact, I so often wish as tears start streaming down my face that they would just fucking stop because really, it's annoying. And embarrassing. And when I'm really pissed off? I DO. NOT. WANT. TO. CRY. in front of the person who pissed me off. And when I'm trying to be brave. I do not want people to see me cry.

The flip side of this is I can't cry on demand. If I get pulled over for speeding, CAN. NOT. CRY. I can't do it just to get my own way. Doesn't work. And honestly? I'm really not a manipulator. It's just not who I am.

Now you all know my secret. So, please ignore all the crying.

5 comments:

CursingMama said...

I'm such a crier too. I cry at books, blogs, movies, tv shows, hallmark & folgers commercials.

I feel like an uncontrollable faucet..

The Queen Mama said...

I well up a lot at weird moments (a particular song, a strong thought, a tearjerker commercial, etc.) but rarely all-out cry. I think it's been a year or more since I did that.

I may be overdue.

Beth Fish said...

Big crier here too - hate it, can't help it.

Carmi said...

I may as well fess up, too: I cry.

And I'm a guy. No shame there.

J said...

I am the same way. Intense emotion, not matter what kind makes me cry.