Thursday, April 13, 2006

Any Ideas?

I'm a bit worried. The disconnect that proceeded my diagnosis of depression is back. I know this has happened since I've went off the meds but I've always pulled out of it. I also have noticed I'm self-medicating with food again. For the last couple of weeks. Needless to say the weight loss thing has been a no go and that is feeding into the disconnect.

I'm not sure what to do. Do I wait it out? Do I... what? What do I do? Each time I've felt this way I've panicked. I really don't want to go back on the medication. I want to fix this myself. Besides, the sadness isn't back. The mood swings are bearable. I've been screaming at the kids a bit more but not too bad.

Help a girl out... anyone got a way for me to get back on track? Has anyone felt this way before? What helped you? I need to fix this before I slide too far down that slippery slope and end up at the bottom of a full fledged depression again.

4 comments:

Tami said...

I wish I had some sage advice Heidi - I feel so helpless.

Instead I'll just have to tell you that I'm here for you! If you need to chat about anything, you know my e-mail address. Use it!

Wait! I think I have an idea . . .

How about some "alone time"? At home? Can hubby take the kids away for the day so you can curl up and read? Take a bath? Take a walk? Find your inner peace?

The Queen Mama said...

You know yourself better than anyone else does...

I would bring these concerns to your doctor. Although tami's suggestion has a lot of merit, too.

Do you exercise? I'm a big believer in the power of natural endorphins.

Amanda Sue said...

i couldn't muddle through without my daily dose, so more power to you for doing it without meds!

it is so good that you self-monitor and can steady yourself before it becomes too bad. for me, if i am headed to meltdown, nothing helps except to have someone catch me at the bottom.

talk to a professional! don't be ashamed to need medicine - depression can be the result of a chemical void in your brain.

cursingmama said...

Quite frankly, I know nothing. But, I think talking to your dr., & maybe adding some adult only (not necessarily alone) time to your schedule might help.
feel better sooon....